Today, I lost in the war of toddler vs. mom.
I lost big time.
Actually, I think everyone lost, even sweet, innocent sister. You see, a screaming mom and crying toddler is just no good. No good at all. Dude had about fifty meltdowns and I've had two so far. I love dude with every ounce of my being, but today I was just downright ugly to him. In my defense, he was ugly to me too. However, I never want to be a mean momma and today I was.
The main reason for our struggles is that we have started potty training. Today is day two and started off GREAT! Dude used the bathroom first thing this morning & even pooped in the toilet. He then decided he would have meltdown after meltdown and not use it for the rest of the day. That boy is very strong-willed. Grrrr. I'm trying to be patient, but that's just not my nature. My nature is to get stressed out until things are over, so it looks like I will be stressed for a good while.
The second reason for both of our breakdowns is food. Dude is a picky eater and it stresses me out. I mean he lives off bread and bread alone. It even says in the Bible, man cannot live on bread alone. Maybe dude needs to read the Bible more. Well, we both do evidently!
Both of those things, along with hormones, and no daddy at home all led to me being a bad mom. I NEVER want to be a mom that yells all day at her kids. I even raised my voice at sweet Annie noon and all she does is sleep all day.
I want to blog my frustrations and failures, so I can look back and be thankful for the good days. I want to cry, yet again, when I think about today. Yet, I know that I have a Savior who has my back and has blessed me beyond belief. Today was hard, but tomorrow is a new day.
So with that, I am going to the Rock that is higher than I. Because, you see, man cannot live on bread alone.